Lord, I just rejected 2 job offers... and I need so much faith on... trusting... I dunno how many times I have to learn this lesson... I need to learn it over & over & over... remembering that you always will catch me over & over & over...
As I look around in the reality, I see a lot of things that makes me feel sad, alone & afraid... I dunno what You're doing for me this season and what You have seen as You go before me... I can't look around and focus on reality.... reality, like the laws - they kill. Reality living needs no faith. And without faith... God will be out of sight/mind... faithless/default living needs no God... :( I feel sad already...
Lord, I pray my journey will always need you... It's already impossible from my angle... I dunno how I'm gonna get there... I dun see it now in the reality... all I can do is to look to you... and trust... Father pls catch me... pls catch my heart & help me to focus on you... I need you... so much...
I don't deserve your grace & mercy... but I got them... I felt stress earlier becos of this... pondering how I am under your grace & mercy... and wondered what happens when they ran out... I wonder why I wonder about that... when your word clearly says your love endures forever...
I have so sooo many questions as I read that I wish I have a place to ask... and discuss... but I don't... Lord I pray you'll show me a place/ppl that I can do bible study with... HS pls help me wif these questions... I have so many and they bug me when I can't find the answers... when I dun understand... they bug me... makes me wanna dive into the water and stay down... too many flies on the surface.
Trust... back to trust... I began this journey Lord free falling... 3 yrs it has been and you never fail. This yr has been different... it has been a yr that human speaking-ly, less interesting, less exciting than the first two yrs~~ but this yr I learn something different~~ teaching... esp in story telling~~ it's so essential and impt and I love it~~
I pray Lord pls hold me up so I dun fall... your daughter can't hold herself up... sometimes she looks at the floor and forgot to look up... and when she looks up, her near-sightedness sees only blurry image of stuff going on...and couldn't quite make out what...
Father pls help me... I'm only walking wif you and no other. I'm following you and no other. I'm carried by you and no other. I have so many things in my heart that I dun even know where to start... so many ppl I wanna help, things that I wanna say... change that I wanna make... I wish I'm a walking love dispenser like you... and all I can do is look to you...
I believe in everything that you say... everything and I still ask like a silly girl.. Lord I believe... all those things that I know and yet to discover in the bible...
I will continue to ask... Lord may the world's eyes turn away from worthless symbols & may their souls turn to you and you alone. May all my brothers & sisters discover your love, grace & truth and dispense you like never before.
I believe and look to you Jesus. My grace, my truth, my love... my peace... *hugs*
"I trust in, rely on, and am confident in You, O Lord; I say, You are my God. My times are in Your hands." Ps 31:14-15
"I trust in God at all times. I pour out my heart before Him; God is a refuge for me." Ps 62:8
"The fear of man brings a snare, but whoever leans on, trusts in, and puts his confidence in the Lord is safe and set on high." Prov 29:25
"In repentance and rest is my salvation, in quietness and trust is my strength." Isa 30:15
14th Feb
Me.
~I am well kept by Him in the secret place...
~Everyday amongst or beyond, I look up...smiles...He is there.
~He carries me... even before I came to be, He carried me...played with me...spoke to me and cuddled me... whispered sacred treasures into my heart...
~"I love you and I know how you'll be...I see you and I'll keep the heart of my eyes with you. I love you and I'll be with you..." "Your name is."
~I don't shine among a crowd of strangers...but have ears and heart for the thoughts of one
~I like to shine in the world for you...but I want to hide away from it as well...
~The sum of me is lesser than the equation of this world.... But it's more than the life of Your heart...
~You marvel me Lord...your deep love marvels me.
~I love you God, Lord Jesus & Holy Spirit.
~I love you.
I appreciate this love
This world is my playground with you
Of dreams of hope and a journey
Arising and moving
To be in love with you day after day
This layout was done by nette and the Codes from kriss. Finally, I would like to introduce you to a highly talented photographer, Michal Zaleski: pbase.
