It's been a looong time and I have learned so much this yr... so many lessons and it's already August. Where do I begin??
On the recent events~~ faith. Going back to quietness & trust~~ it's so awesome... It's beyond explanation... I didn't know why at first... and now... it's looking back & smile at those experiences :)
Honestly I was angry at why the production didn't go as perfectly as I would like it to be... and all the expectations that I was expecting... I felt like it was war zones around me... yes... spiritual warfare was on... and I got shot a lot of times... it was no fun... esp kena shot for no reason by ppl and strangers...
I didn't understand why this was happening... I was just frustrated. I "gave up" in my heart... like... you know what, shoot all you want, I dun care anymore... the more I care, the more I get hurt... I was complaining on all the wounds I've got.... and the tiredness... so many things... which I can't quite type out in the open web... dun wanna be caught in one... but God, you know... and I'm glad you did...
There come a point that reasons are just not needed anymore... so I gave up seeking the whys to all that has happened... and just be. Waited. In frustration. And in points where I just forgot everything and smiled with you again... how Lord... to be angry with love? You must have had your reasons... and you sure did. I saw the lesson... and I'm glad things didn't go my way... I'm glad not everything was shown to me... that my eyes were covered... to trust... that in all things, it will work out for me, though I do not see them as yet.
A test. :) I got it~ *pokes* Trust... Peace... Faith... Love... Each quality produces & births out the next quality that forms me. My character. And I needed that pressure to birth out that trust in you. *Thank you Lord* I'm slowly getting there... trusting you more & more... & not get so worked up in the little mole hills... and giving up when I'm standing before mountains... I pray the day will come where I will shout at those mountains to look behind them, cos you're gonna crush them like cockroaches... *haha* I pray the day will come where I will not give up when I'm facing giants... but we will stone them down together like you did wif lil' shepherd David :)
Thank you Lord for helping me develop...helping me grow in seeing more & more of you in my reality... without that, even when miracles/impossible happenings knock at my door, I'm gonna be doubting...justifying...and trying to explain it to make it into a natural...than seeing for what it is - supernatural.
Lord, you're amazing. Thank you~~ *hugs* *kisses*
I'm happy where I am now~~ I pray growth & promotion will happen... I want to go live in NYC & grow in my skills... I'm looking forward to that trip~~ meanwhile... I think you're not done with me here yet... *sigh* I feel sad but I guess you best know how to grow me... I'm not the gardener... I'll treasure every sunshine & raindrops~~
Thank you for all the experiences thus far...thank you for all the exposures & ppl~~ Thank you for all the opportunities for me to express & learn~~Thank you for helping me discover, learn & grow... You're awesome Lord~~
Thank you for loving me the way you do... Thank you for creating me the way I am... I love me... the way I am... Thank you for loving me & showing me your love... I would never have discover more of you & me without knowing the passion you have for me...
If I dun get it for me, how would I be able to run like the Samaritan woman...telling & showing the world... about you... I'm still have so much to discover & learn Lord... so much.
You are awesome Lord. So so awesome... *Thank you Jesus* *Thank you Father God*
"~There is no one like you... to your name we give all the glory~"
"17The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior [Who saves]! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest [in silent satisfaction] and in His love He will be silent and make no mention [of past sins, or even recall them]; He will exult over you with singing." Zep 3:17 (Amp)
"In returning [to Me/Jesus] and resting [in Me/Jesus]you shall be saved; in quietness and in [trusting] confidence shall be your strength." Isa 30:15 (Amp)
"Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you." John 14:27 (Amp)
"17And the effect of righteousness (looking to Jesus) will be peace [internal and external], and the result of righteousness (looking to Jesus) will be quietness and confident trust forever." Isa 32:17 (Amp)
14th Feb
Me.
~I am well kept by Him in the secret place...
~Everyday amongst or beyond, I look up...smiles...He is there.
~He carries me... even before I came to be, He carried me...played with me...spoke to me and cuddled me... whispered sacred treasures into my heart...
~"I love you and I know how you'll be...I see you and I'll keep the heart of my eyes with you. I love you and I'll be with you..." "Your name is."
~I don't shine among a crowd of strangers...but have ears and heart for the thoughts of one
~I like to shine in the world for you...but I want to hide away from it as well...
~The sum of me is lesser than the equation of this world.... But it's more than the life of Your heart...
~You marvel me Lord...your deep love marvels me.
~I love you God, Lord Jesus & Holy Spirit.
~I love you.
I appreciate this love
This world is my playground with you
Of dreams of hope and a journey
Arising and moving
To be in love with you day after day
This layout was done by nette and the Codes from kriss. Finally, I would like to introduce you to a highly talented photographer, Michal Zaleski: pbase.
